Hi my lovely godess,

have you ever asked yourself who you really are?

Are you only „body“? Or what will happened after death with you?

Perhaps you are strate now on a point in your life where you feel hopeless and depressed. Because you live a hard moment! Or your live feels not really fullfilled. Perhaps you made terrible experiences. Lost perhaps somebody. Have a hard time with illness. Or made experiences with other people who injured you in some kind.

I feel you!

Deeply!

For over 15 years now I was in this situation. I was pregnant but lost my kid in the 5th month of pregnancy. In a time, where everybody saw I was pregnant and mostly my oldest son full of happiness about his little sister!

It comes out of the sudden!

It was saturday the 16th in January.

My pregnancy felt well. But in the pregnancy controll the little heart of my girl didn´t beat anymore!

The ground under my feeds disapear!

But not enough: In the same year my lovely grandparents -both- also died! They lived far away from me. And in the past it was difficult to visit them. But to every time, they were my anker when everything wents wrong in my life!

They never judged me! They took me, how I am! And there home was my little paradies to breathe again!

This all happend in between 6 month!

I was deeply sad. Lost controll over my life. Dived into the deep dark. My body crashed into deep burnout with painful aches in my face (trigeminus nerve),  daily permanent migraine with constant nusea and high light sensivity!

My luck was my oldest son. He was the only reason why I could not give up! Only for him it was enough to stand up day after day!

In the same time, I had to finish my diploma of biology, working in a job to have enough money to live.

I fight… against life!

I couldn´t excepted what happened!

I didn´t wanted that this all was true!

So often I was on the point to give up! When I went to university (driven over a long distance in mostly snowy mountains in winter), I drove hardly risky! Perhaps something happens! Perhaps something helps me to get out of this bad film!

But nothing happens!

Till I gave up!

Gave up fighting!

Gave up trying to minimize my pain!

And silently and suddenly the flow begans!

I asked god (just not believing that something like God or Source really excists). I was/am a scientist! There were no proofs about his real existence! So for what please in the whole world should really please this silly life! You were born, you try to life, fighting the whole life, and than die! This gave no sence to me!

For what the hell should this be good!

I asked and asked and asked!

My eyes closed, because light was so painful! I had to look inside me!

I asked God: „Really! Is this all?“

I felt guilty because of my miscarriage! Why had this happened!

„Wasn´t I a good mother?“

„Why I am here?“

„What is my purpose?“

I cried so many days! Tears running over my face. Not finding answers!

But sudden from nowhere, the answers came.

Telepathically into me!

And from outside things happened, magically!

I´m so thankful for my oldest son! I don´t know, if I would be here anymore, if he- so little he was- was by me! He was my angel!

Nothing else gave me more sense to take this life!

This moment was my awaken!

It was like crashing EVERYTHING!

But you know: After rain everytime sun comes out!

This was the moment, my first channelings happens (but I didn´t know, what this was, fearful I thought now, I got crazy! 🙂 ) It was a really crazy time!

Words began to flow into me. Words full of love! Answers of my questions! Thelepatically! And they felt warm and cozy. Slowly it seemed that something changed!

Today I know, my little girl and I (and we as family) had exactly this appointment that our whole life changed into a life of magic, fullfillment and pure freedom. Thank you my star child for your trust!

By the way, I don´t think, that everybody needs this hard way of awaken. It is absolutly not necessary! But many of us, take these kind of way!

Now, many years ago, all my body aches are gone. I healed. But not because of medicine (I´ve never taken one, also in these hard parts). Because of this little voice in my heart. Which gently guided me again into light ( and yes, of course, because of my little son).

This voice told me: Go deeper and make your own business! Help others with energy work! Wasn´t this crazy!

I come from a family of scientists, me too a scientist! And than a none seen voice told me such a crazy stuff! But this stuff felt soo cozy and warm.

And I jumped!

I jumped into the unknown as the first entrepreneur of he whole family!

Because I trust!

But why?

Because I felt inside: There is more! We are so much more!

We are travellers through the universe. Yes, we are star seed. EVERYBODY! Because after death we merge into divine consciousness. Making new plans for new experiences somewhere in the universe. And incarnate again. And yes, we make these descisions because we want to know who we are and the better reason: Because we want to have fun!

So: Why are you here? Just now!

Because you want to have really much fun here! Nothing less! You wanted to experience on planet earth how you can get out of the illusion of separation, back into merge of universe! And in between you decided to try everything you can find on earth!

It is a game!

Mostly we play the game of illusions!

But that´s not why we incarnate.

We incarnate to unmask every illusion and let us fall into the unknown. Because we know: The unknown is GOD or Source! And what ever we try to test, we are carried!

So yes: Not only some of us are star seed! We all are star seed! Or do you have an answer where we will go after death, if we are no „traveller of the universe“?

We all are chosen!

Because we had chosen!

And this means also: you are ever deeply connected with sourse! You are SOURCE! And because your are an aspect of source, you are the creator of your „little reality universe“! So: Equal how painful your life perhaps just is! Hopefully not, of course! But we all know: Life is sometimes a big challenge! You have everything inside you to change everything into light and love!

Which point in your life you are still: You are the creator of everything! Because that is, what star consciousness is!

And that´s what I´ve done in my past!

Growing deeper and deeper in my state of creator!

Awaken my facilities as divine consciousness (like telepathic communication, traveling through space and time, energetic healing,….).

It is in everybody of us!

We only have to remember!

And that´s why I´m still here:

In my hardest times I always was deeply guided from universe! And in asking what my special tasks are, I always got the answer: You are here to guide others!

Everybody of us has minimum one wonderful task, mostly we have many joyfull tasks!

Do you know your purpose(s)?

So, this first blog is really very emotional and raw! But this was my life! And these hard moment changed really everything! Now, you know some facts about my beginning of this wonderful spiritual journey! And yes, of course, perhaps you want to know, what happened till know?

I will tell you more and more about in my following blogs!

And you?

In which point are you just now?

What´s your life just now about?

Can you feel, that there is more than your „body“? And you are more? and of course, also you are came for more?

Can you feel, that you are star seed, on the journey just now on planet earth?

Let´s talk more about in my following blogs!

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I love you from the bottom of my heart.